Well I'm just back from my folks house where I spent some time for the holidays. It was nice to be back there. I spent a lot of it just kinda running around, but there is always so much to do when I am there. I did get to catch up on some sleep some which was nice. We had a nice holiday and my mom made a great dinner on Christmas Day.

Right now, I'm up at LANLords Gaming for my usual 10PM - 2AM shift. Quiet tonight, only 4 folks in here. Just going to head home when I get done and try to get to sleep right away and get up tomorrow at a decent time. Maybe get some things done around the house or even just relax some before I come back in here tomorrow from 3PM - 10PM.

Oh, and I'm done at Big Bear. I was officially "laid off" last week. I am looking forward to the free time I will have and as well looking forward to finally starting on the basement remodel. No, really. For real this time. :)

It's snowing! I'm loving it. It's also 6:30 in the morning during Lock-down #6 at LANlords Gaming so I may not be ALL that coherent. :)

It's a nice steady snowfall, and its supposed to continue all day into the night and I am absolutely LOVING it. I took some pics tonight that turned out really neat and I will get those up tomorrow night when I am more awake.

The Lock-down is going smoothly and nearing a close soon. Mike & Laura stopped by tonight since they were in town and it was GREAT to see them. Sometimes you don't realize how much you really miss people until you get to see them. The time went too fast while they were here, and in retrospect i felt like I monopolized the time we had babbling inanely about me :P

Prizes have been handed out here, and its all winding down. I'm going to wrap this up before I start REALLY babbling incoherently.

More later....

If you haven't heard yet (and I can't imagine that you haven't) US coalition forces captured Saddam Hussein last night!

Even MORE later now I'm sure......

First of all - why haven't posted lately. Well, it was a combination of a few things. No time, great posting thoughts at times when I couldn't post and most importantly: broken software. That took a lil while for the web hosting folks to fix, but they finally got it all worked out. I'll try to post more regularly now.

Well, not that anyone other than about two people read this, but if you do and you aren't my father or Jen, then drop me a line and let me know you are reading this. My contact info is here.

Now from this point on unless you want to read the things that roll around my head when I'm in a pissy mood, I suggest you click here now.

I'm in less of a bad mood that I was an hour ago. So this won't be as horrific as it could have been.

• Christmas "spirit" is something just feel or you don't. But you know what? If you feel it and I don't, just leave me the FUCK ALONE! Seriously! I don't even know if I am going to bother putting up my Christmas tree this year. Why the HELL would I want to decorate the office one? I can't hardly stand the bulk of you the other 11 months of the year, and yet you don't seem to get that. I get PAID to deal with you. That's the bottom line folks.
• On the note of co-workers, I am sick and fucking TIRED of being told "you're in a bad mood today" or "wow you're in a much better mood today." Most times they are completely wrong about my mood, and secondly if I'm acting like I'm in a bad mood to you, then odds are you DID SOMETHING that caused me to act that way.
• The majority of the people I work with can't grasp the concept of limitations. No matter how much you insist that the laptop can make french toast, nor no matter how much money you are willing to fruitlessly waste on it, the goddamn thing just CAN'T make french toast. Deal with it.
• I have also reached my threshold with "prima donnas." I don't care HOW much money you have, I don't care WHO you think you know, I don't care HOW IMPORTANT you think you are in life. Get a grip. We live on a big floating rock and sooner or later we all die. I don't believe in anything after that. So lose the chip on your shoulder, it makes you walk funny anyhow. I am a person who just tries to be nice to everyone and help them out in any way that I can. Until you piss me off......and at that point I don't give a fuck about you.
• The same goes for immature people who refuse to grow up and take responsibility for themselves and their lives.
• I also decided that I am grinding myself into the fucking ground and I'm going to have to fix that. I need to stop plodding along in life and start making SOMETHING happen. I'm 32 years old and I don't have half of the things I thought I would have at this point in my life and its fucking sad. I'm not talking about big screen tvs and lil red sports cars either. I'm talking about things that matter. If you have to ask, then you really have no fucking clue, do you?
• I'm really, REALLY, REALLY sick and tired of getting mail in my ex-wife's name from USAA. I have called these retards so many times about this, its not even fucking funny anymore. I don't need four reminders a week about the mistakes I made in my life. I made more mistakes in my life than any of you will ever know, and likewise none of you will ever know the depths of which these poor judgements run. But I don't need some fucking insurance company reminding me of it 208 times a year. Luckily though every piece of mail has the toll-free number I can call where they will lie to me, apologize and swear that they WILL take care of it. And that it will only take 12 weeks to get off the mailing list. All the while, they are checking every box that they can so that I get MORE mail from them. Asshats.
• If you don't like what goes through my head when I'm in a bad mood, you should have clicked that link above like I told you to. Fuck you, I gave you the option on the front end of this drivel.

So, uh, yeah shit like that runs through my head when I am in a bad mood. Like you wanted to know, but now you do. Oh well.